"You're fat Mum!!"

I'm not sure why I've called my blog that...It's just the first thing that came into my mind. It's also what Ella announced at Play Centre about 3 Months ago as I sat at the morning tea table. I laughed at the time, and so did the Mums that were in ear shot...but I was mortified and I felt like crying. So in a round about way, that's what gave me the 'kick' I needed. People think that fat people don't know they're fat...well they do. It's hard not to notice when you can't do your pants up in the morning...when just finding something to wear everyday requires military precision. So, as of today I am 87kgs. I've lost 16kgs over the last 3 Months and I'm starting to feel good. People are starting to notice and comment. The first few weeks are rough....I fast and exercise. It's not something you can tell people you're doing without a raft of negative comments, so I tend to lie and when I'm asked how I'm doing it, I say 'I'm just watching what I eat'. When I started losing weight, I was 103kgs and a size 20. It's funny how you still try and deny it though...I hated my husband folding the washing cause I didn't want him to see the size of my clothes, which resembled small tents! I'm comfortably wearing a pair of size 16 pants today which I found in the back of my wardrobe, and I've had to buy myself a few new bits and pieces to accommodate my shrinking body. But it's certainly a long road....I have a goal weight of 65kgs and I've noticed the weight isn't coming off as quickly as it did in those first few weeks. I'll have to increase the amount of exercise I do, which I'm dreading as I HATE exercising with a passion. Having a treadmill has helped, but getting on it is a different story! I still feel hungry often too, and between 3-7pm is a bad time for me. I've given up dinner all together and usually have some fruit and a yogurts...but having to cook for the rest of the family poses a challenge and although I have given in a few times, I wont be anymore. So, I'll call today DAY 1, I'm feeling motivated and determined and while I still have some emotional demons that need to be dealt with (which I may or may not go into on here..lol) I know I can do it!!